Saturday, November 19, 2005
i wrote how i feel just now... upon starting the dinner.... i can feel that something is not correct...dunno why, i know that derek will come in to read the blog. i am nor happy or sad that he knows. derek.... seriously, i really care about u... u can read back on our blog, we are wondering what had happen to u.. u suddenly change. from a very cheerful person to a very stress and someone that dun really talk alot upon our meeting. i am being frank that sometime i really wish that u wasnt there. i want to see the same old u... laughing and smiling thruout the gathering. how can someone in your life make u so stresSS? is it good to be so stress at this moment of time. yah... earning money is no doubt important. but we dun really need that money. we can just relax ourselves and live happily everyday. do u know how important u are to me? we had being thru so much together. trying to change u from sec 1 to the present u. and now u are walking back to the solemn u...seeing u sad actually affect my mood alot.anyway i really want to see u happy. frenship is important to everyone. having to know u guys are already the best thing that i can get from u all. having to be together is the dream and wish that i pray for... no one wanted problems to come up and that include me. i choose to say everything out here so that everyone know the situation. i dun like to hide from anyone. two weeks ago, i choose to remain silent cause i am on course and if anything happen, i will not be able to manage. this is the time and i hope everyone will think far and wide. at last my vision have been achieve. everyone is online and have an access to the blog already. if got any problem, just voice out here... dun be worry... i am ready to accept all truth. and i guess every single one will think it too.. am i right? will our friendship last forever. tml will be a new day and i hope everyone will be ok... especially derek... i am sorry if i offenced u ... but i am really speaking my truth... take care everyone and derek... i will never forget u... u guys too... nite nite...
Jovan
[11/19/2005 11:00:00 PM]
