Saturday, December 08, 2007
havin lotsa gan chus now.. or.. at least.. m havin deep thots now..
was tokin to pa juz now.. n our topic.. of coz.. "frenship"..
was actually thinkin.. shld i blog here.. or in my own blog..
wld haf preferred my own blog.. coz more privacy.. .. but.. pa says we never blog tt much le.. so.. here i m.. :)
dunno y.. after tokin to pa.. made me started thinkin alot.. made me feel "heavy" also..
during our conversation juz now.. pa picked out lotsa things i said in e past.. but wad caught my attention most is:
"do take care.. n treasure every1 ard u.. i really mean treasure them.. not juz empty words but no specific actions.. actions speaks louder den words.."
when pa showed me all e stuffs i said be4.. m abit shock.. coz.. i dun haf any memory of it at all.. i still thot pa is tellin me some da dao li now.. he's e one sayin it..
we continued chattin chattin.. n.. e mood juz seems more solemn n sad..
e sad thing is.. e above sentence.. when pa showed me n told me i was e one who said it in e past.. .. at tt instance.. i felt numb.. meaningless..
pa asked me for actions! .. but.. i was somehow dumbfounded.. coz.. i noe i m not doin wad i said in tt sentence.. i noe i m not doin anythin to treasure wads ard me..
in fact.. i think i haf some sort of can't be bothered attitude..
seems abit rude.. abit selffish.. abit sad.. but.. i really dun haf e energy / motivation / effort to go n take actions to change things.. to start tokin to ppl.. to ask ppl out.. to "treasure things"
e person i tok to most now is jo.. n.. maybe pa? .. even ye i like also seldom tok to him le.. wad more e rest of u all..
pa n i continued tokin.. tellin me frenship is abt givin, not receiving...
tellin me last time ye promise him be4 tt he (ye) will continue this circle of frens..
.. yup.. it will continue.. but.. somehow.. i think all of us recognize tt things r unlike be4.. some of us haf changed.. e feelin haf also changed.. .. even pa can feel its different le..
when we tok till this pt.. seems so sad.. .. but.. seems like m more positive den pa.. coz.. i've somehow got used to it.. n accepted it le..
since mths back.. or probably since last yr.. we had already recognized this issue.. n think in my blogs i did mention be4 le ba.. so.. ... no big deal.. rite?
all of us still remain like tt.. guess every1 also used to it le..
but anyway.. chalet comin up..
m not very enthu abt it.. yet? .. i dunno.. but.. at least.. i noe.. its a chance for us to get together again.. relax.. haf fun.. probably we will be close again ba???
no matter wad.. i still believe n stick to 1 sentence..
gd frens dun need always meet up to remain close one.. .. if e bond is there.. it will be there..
.. this.. my promise to pa n i'll remember it.. heh.. rite pa??? =)
think m abit lor sor le..
fr juz now abit sad n serious mood when i started bloggin.. now.. already back to e normal siao me le..
anyway... dec is a time to have fun! holiday is comin!
jo already out to taiwan le.. derek goin holiday soon.. me 2!
when we're back.. got public holiday also.. dun remember is wad occasion.. but i noe its boi's bday.. haha..
den .. xmas! n our chalet! .. n.. new yr!
so many things to look forward to..
m sure.. things will turn better for all of us ba.. whether work.. studies.. frenship.. everything!
okie.. end of blog le..
smile n be positive!
min =)
MiNtY
[12/08/2007 01:14:00 AM]
